- not being able to come up with the right quips during conversation in time to use them
- speaking with far too many words, too quickly, without the right kinds of pauses or contextualization for my listener
- not knowing when to look at people such as baristas or coworkers
- keeping the place in good shape and
the only thing different is that i notice the gap between me and others, the total disconnect that exists as i attempt my best known fakes and imitations. i see in brilliant detail how and why the ones that aren't effective come out that way. i have a diagnostic of the problems that need solving in my ability to interact, i just don't have any solutions despite reading a book about learning social thinking. i feel like my firmware just doesn't have code that would support the implementation of efficient, behavior-defining social thinking.